Hmmm

So, I'm not sure how I feel this week.  I miss home, but its not like extreme homesickness like it used to be at school, but there are things I miss from home right now.  Like the family, and the pool, and diving boards.  The ability to breathe when I run! haha 
I think part of it is that my summer job for the past 7 years is over by now, and I'm on vacation enjoying just relaxation. And living at my job makes it harder to feel relaxed and like I am on vacation.   I'm trying to find the joys in the little things, and not harden my heart to out here and count down the days till I'm done.

Morning Rearranging

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind. and strength and love your neighbor as yourself."
Mark 12:30
I don't love Jesus with ALL my heart all my soul all my mind and all my strength. And no one, person, friend or family member can make me.
I have to want to do it for me and Jesus. Not because they want me too.  Its not me and Jesus and Mama, or me and Jesus and my siblings, or me and Jesus and my friends.  Its ME and JESUS. That's it.
  Its like people who are married, they have each other.  Their parents give them advice and their friends give them advice but ultimately it is between husband and wife, they have to do it for them because they want it for them.